Monday, March 21, 2011

First Day of Spring

The Denver Botanic Gardens occasionally has "free days" - as they did yesterday, for the first day of spring. I have been to the DBG several times before, but I think it's probably been at least 6 months since I was last here. Their gardens are a bit further along than mine (as far as having things up and blooming), but then, I'd be disappointed if they weren't. Crocuses and Dwarf Iris carried the day, and with that, let's start off with a shot of 'Alba' (I think) - please click these thumbnails to see larger pics with more details:

And some more bluish ones, covering a small hillside:
And here's an odd grouping of etched stones. I can identify a torah scroll, shofar, lamb (with a cross symbol), menorah, grapes, burning bush, and a fish with a Greek(?) caption. I really don't know what it is - some kind of Messianic Zodiac?? But they are missing some months. Maybe each stone is for one of the major feasts? Feast of Trumpets, Passover, Feast of First Fruits, Hannukah...?? idk
I don't know what these are either, but they look cool! Emerging Hellebores, maybe?
Though they are not in bloom, I have seen these before. They are tulips, but they have amazing foliage:
A close up of some darker dwarf iris, amidst what looks like creeping thyme:
One of many lovely hellebores seen that day:
Lamium and heather:
Little snow crocus, big Dutch crocus, winter aconite (yellow) and muscari (grape hyacinth).
A few primroses nestled amongst the Dutch crocus:
I love this pairing of 'Pickwick' Dutch crocus with a dark viola:
Indoors there were several orchids in a rainforest setting. I was really wishing I hadn't worn a sweater!
A nice shot from behind the waterfall:
After walking around the gardens, Adrian and I went to India Oven, one of our favorite Indian Buffets in Denver for a late lunch. Though we arrived after 2pm, the place was packed! There was a large group of Indians all seated together, and I noticed what looked like bright pink powder in one man's hair. I remembered seeing in some Indian movie (Outsourced?) something about an Indian festival that involved throwing colorful powders on each other. Later I had a chance to confirm this via Wikipedia. They were celebrating the first day of spring too!

See Wikipedia's entry on "Spring"
Holi or Phagwah, the festival of colors, celebrated at the end of the winter season on the last full moon of the lunar month Falgun (February/March), is the most vibrant festival of colours celebrated by Hindus in India. People throw water and apply colour powders on each other.
 Then we came home. Here's the beginnings of spring in my garden(s). For starters, the Hellebore finally came:

 Emerging sedum, allium, and Pasque flower:
 A tulip leaf coming up in the middle of a blue flax plant:
 Muscari (grape hyacinth) comign up through creeping thyme:
 Hepatica:

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

My Take on IQ Testing

I have always been interested in tests and quizzes of all kinds. When I was taking homeschool co-op classes (lots of homeschool families get together, and parents with background in certain areas teach classes that might be difficult to teach at home: band, drama, physical education, computers, foreign language, art, higher math and lab sciences, etc) we often had tests. On a test day I was always excited! I barely knew what testing anxiety was until I got to college (and even then, only rarely at first - it became a habit by the time I was a senior). To me tests were like a game, especially if the teacher gave extra credit. One time I got a perfect score on a Spanish test of 130 (out of 100), and the teacher told me that I was making her look bad. Another time in Chemistry, I think I got a 140-something on a test because the teacher told us to memorize the periodic table, and I was the only one who really tried, and she made every piece of info we could remember from that be one point extra credit. Even though I was already way over what was needed to get an A, I just thought it was fun to see how high I could go!

I also liked taking personality tests, and have enjoyed even silly email forward questionnaires and things of that sort. So, is it any surprise that I enjoyed taking self-administered IQ tests from time to time? The firt IQ test I took was from some book my parents had, written by a British author (I do not remember the title or author). I scored an IQ of 95. Now, I was probably only about 10 or 12 at the time, but the tests are supposed to be adjusted for age. However, there was alot of British wording in the tests that I wasn't used to at the time, and the questions often involved subjects with which I was completely unfamiliar at the time (ex: Rearrange some letters to form a make of car. Like I knew ANYTHING about cars back then!). Since then I have taken many, many self-administered IQ tests online, with my scores falling all over the board. The highest score I ever got was 150, which I think was the limit of that particular test, and I would have to say that it was an extremely easy test! But even at the cost of temporarily being labeled with an IQ of 95, that first book was an interesting book, none-the-less, as it familiarized me with some of the more salient points of IQ theory. The big thing to remember is that IQ stands for Intelligence Quotient. A quotient is the result of a division operation. The original equation was:

IQ (intelligence quotient) = (Mental Age / Chronological Age) x 100

The mental age is either the test score itself or some derivative thereof. So, the IQ is something created from the formula, the mental age is something created from the test, and the chronological age is the subject's actual age. Note that none of the quantities is specifically meant to designate intelligence per se. And yet, the term 'IQ' is considered synonymous with intelligence in everyday usage - which is quite a stretch in my opinion.

I have a book called "Yes, We Have No Neutrons: An Eye-Opening Tour through the Twists and Turns of Bad Science." One of the chapters is on IQ. It explains how Binet started out by measuring head circumference, thinking that more intelligent people had larger heads - and his dissatisfaction with this method led to his creation of the first IQ tests. The purpose of his original tests is that which I believe should be the purpose for all tests: to identify and target areas of weakness. In other words, a test helps you know where you need improvement. Binet himself always believed that students could improve, with good teaching; he never believed in a fixed IQ. According to the book, Binet was quite concerned about "reification" or "thingifying" of IQ, just because we have a name for something doesn't mean that it exists.

As far as I can tell, Binet pretty much only worked with normal students. Next the eugenicists got ahold of the idea, and began using it to try to weed out the 'mentally unfit.' Even today many people think of IQ as a fixed, heritable, genetic trait. This is dangerous for a number of reasons, first of all because of the seeming authority it gives to eugenicists, and second of all because people with lower IQ scores will be excused or prevented (by themselves, or those in authority over them) from improving. Furthermore, since what the IQ tests test is something fairly removed from everyday life, it is questionable whether progress towards a "high IQ" is even a useful goal.

It seems easy enough to believe that the more intelligent one is, the more successful one will be in life; and since most people believe that having a high IQ score is the same thing as having a high intelligence, therefore those with high IQ scores will succeed. Furthermore, high test scores of any kind (especially in school), are often thought of as generally representing IQ (even if they are not officially IQ tests). So, we have come to the point where tests scores in general are seen as predictors of life success (and low IQ scores as omens of future failures). This is the logic behind alot of College Entrance Examinations such as the ACT, SAT or PSAT. These tests have often been treated as intelligence tests, which is why organizations like MENSA will accept high enough scores on these tests as proof of eligibility for membership. However, for political reasons which I don't understand, these tests prefer not to be referred to as intelligence tests, and have therefore undergone a number of name changes. From the Wikiepdia entry on SATs:

"The name originally stood for "Scholastic Aptitude Test". But in 1990, because of uncertainty about the SAT's ability to function as an intelligence test, the name was changed to Scholastic Assessment Test. In 1993 the name was changed to SAT I: Reasoning Test (with the letters not standing for anything) to distinguish it from the SAT II: Subject Tests. This change was instituted because of sharp criticism and longitudinal studies showing that the original meaning was no longer accurate; the SAT did not accurately measure what it said it was measuring. In 2004, the roman numerals on both tests were dropped, and the SAT I was renamed the SAT Reasoning Test."

Also, the idea is that an average score will be 1000. However, ever since the test was created, scores have been going down - so the scores are periodically "recentered" in order to keep the average at 1000. The claim is that as more and more underpriviledged students take the tests, averages go down. That's a nice excuse but I'm not sure I can buy it as a total explanation. I think the average student/graduate today is, quite simply, less well taught than students in past generations.

Whether you are looking at official IQ tests, or college admissions tests, the thing that stands out is that they are all about percentiles, or a bell-curve. In college I began to notice that there were two kinds of professors: those who believed in testing based on competency, and those who believe in testing based on a bell curve. The problem with bell curve testing is that some people have to fail. The professors who use bell curve grading seem to think that is their duty to "put students in their place," in other words, they think that if too many people are passing, their tests are too easy and they are letting some of the idiots slip through the net. The professors who focus on competency seem to think that it is their duty to help each student learn as much as he can. One such professor who focused on what I call competency testing was fond of remarking after a test "The average was an A. Guess I must be doing something wrong!"

Under the American system where students (or their parents or their creditors) pay for tuition, I think that anything other than the competency based view is extremely unfair. I think that teachers and professors should think of themselves as serving the students (since the students pay them), rather than as gatekeepers of the academic institutions. In other countries where all higher education is free, perhaps it makes more sense to have "gatekeepers," but then I think you might introduce unnecessary competitiveness.

Back to the idea of 'g' (general intelligence) being a heritable trait. The Dewdney book talks about a study done at some point where a particular class of kids is given an intelligence test and scores relatively low. Then they are coached, and take the test again, and score relatively high. This should prove that IQ is not fixed! In my own experiences with self-administered IQ tests, I can say that mine does not seem to be fixed (remember, I've ranged from 95 to 150). And on the 'official IQ tests' called the SAT and PSAT, here is what happened:

My older brother was preparing for college, and taking a Kaplan class to prepare for taking his SAT. My mom was trying to decide whether or not I should skip a year, so she had me take a free practice PSAT/SAT test from Kaplan, on which I scored 1080, and it was decided that was good enough for me to skip 10th grade. The following fall, I (now in 11th grade) was enrolled in a Kaplan course, and after a few months of coaching I took the PSAT, and scored an SAT equivalent 1440 (actually a 215 in the PSAT scoring system, because the PSAT had three sections instead of two, which the SAT had at the time), which qualified me for being a National Merit Scholar. So, with coaching, I gained almost 400 points in a matter of months! Then, to verify my scores, I had to take the SAT. It took me 4 tries before I finally got a 1450 (the other three were in the low 1300's). Now, there was no limit on how many times I could take the test, and Kaplan classes are completely legal too - but it just goes to show that finally achieving the National Merit Scholarship was more about work than anything I was born with.

But here's another point of view, what was all of that effort for? Well, it did pay for most of college tuition. But isn't college just more of the same, studying and taking tests? Ans since I haven't even ended up (so far) having a career in anything related to my degree, what was all of that time and effort spent for?

Reading John Taylor Gatto, I have come to the conclusion that IQ is more about compliance than brilliance. Brilliance is about doing something creative, something nobody's every done before, something which also happens to be useful in some way. Compliance is about carrying out orders efficiently without questioning their purpose. Both have their place, but I don't see much relationship between the two. Someone who works really hard to gain the approval of others on something that may or may not have any real use strikes me more as a person of compliance rather than brilliance. Brilliant people are often useful to themselves and to humanity as a whole, whereas compliant people are very, very useful to institutions. Is it coincidence that educational institutions would train people to be useful to employment institutions? I don't think so. But institutionalized people are what is wanted in the world today, though living an institutionalized life isn't very meaningful from a personal standpoint, in my opinion.

So, I am an odd duck. People often praise me for being brilliant, whereas I think that I am merely compliant. However, I do not think that I am compliant for the same reasons that most people are. I think I was simply born compliant. Really, as a child I never wanted to get into trouble, and in contrast to my other siblings I rarely did get in trouble (especially in comparison to my brothers). I was always striving to be obedient, and to garner approval because it was somehow in my nature to be that way. Many people today, I believe are compliant simply because it is pounded into them by the schools. The funny thing is, that my parents, by homeschooling me, were (partially) being very noncompliant (and therefore brilliant) towards "the system." I picked up on that, and in wanting to be compliant to them, have tried to be noncompliant with what I see as "the system." The funny thing is, that in the end, they did not approve of my compliance to (my perception of) their noncompliance (initially, when I finally started to be noncompliant with their noncompliance, they didn't like that either). This is a confusion which has plagued me, I think, for a little over the last decade. I want to follow somebody and I don't know who to follow.

I think I am finally coming to the conclusion that if I am to do anything which I consider worthwhile, then I have to stop following. And yet, as I've said, it is in my nature to be a follower. I would even go so far as to call it part of my idea of feminine identity. I am not even saying that I should be a leader (I really kind of hate the idea, actually), but merely to be more independent than I have been in the past. I do admire brilliance, and if I ever did anything truly brilliant I think I would be proud of myself for doing that. However, it would be very, very challenging for me. But, perhaps, it would be the only worthwhile challenge.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Happy Rhodes

Adrian and I were listening to Pandora one night and a song came on which we had never heard "Lay Me Down" by Happy Rhodes from the album Warpaint.

I did a bit of research and according to Wikipedia she has a four octave range, hardly ever tours or is featured on radio (except locally in NY/PA where she is based), and one of her songs When the Rain Came Down was once mistakenly uploaded to Napster as a duet between Annie Lennox and Kate Bush.

As it turns out, Last.fm has many of her tracks available for free (and legal) download. I got everything available for the albums Warpaint and Ecto. My favorite songs at first from Warpaint (I've not gotten around to listening to Ecto much yet) are: Lay Me Down, Murder, Phobos, and Wrong Century. Adrian really liked Lay Me Down, Murder and especially Words Weren't Made for Cowards. Since he liked that one so much I started listening to it more, and now my favorites are Lay Me Down, Murder, Words Weren't Made for Cowards, To Live in Your World, and In Hiding.

Anyway, Happy Rodes: <3 <3 <3

Monday, February 21, 2011

Happy Birthday to me!

I turned 29 last week. This weekend I had my final birthday celebration with my parents and older brother (previously I had celebrated with my husband and his parents). Anyway, an old tradition in my family is the "treasure hunt" - making someone follow lots of obscure clues to find a present. The most infamous instance of this is when my Dad was a kid, and either he or one of his brothers created a treasure hunt where one of the directions said "Look under the little rock by the tree." Also, they neglected to keep a master list of all clues, so due to the vagueness of that instruction, the treasure hunt was effectively ruined. However, it has become a multi-generational inside joke to say "Go look under the little rock" or "by the tree." Anyway, my older brother, in true Giles form, created a treasure hunt for me:

1.
When you're tired of the roses white
Look to the porcelain best left out of site (Yes, the next post-it note was stuck to a toilet)

2.
I am the chesire cat
There is a hole above my head where I scat (the cat's litterbox)

3.
The site you seek is hard to find,
Unless cardecorators are on your mind. (A domain name my brother owns - another family tradition/inside joke)

4. (from the website)
There is a place where records spin round.
And yet today, they don't make a sound...
LOOK BESIDE THE ROCK! (a shelf where my parents keep lots of old LP's)

5.
 These are not the droids you are looking for
Go back and look down, click for more (scroll down on the original webpage, deliberately made bigger than the screensize)

6.
WAIT! and you thought you were done!
But without understanding you will find none. (scroll down again)

7.
Coffee is black and eggs are white.
But the cinamon is kept out of site! (in the pantry spice rack)

8.
Go back...
Come in...
Flip me over (flip the post-it note)
Login (on the website, which links to Gmail)

9. and I logged in to find an email alerting me to an e-giftcard from Lowe's, so that I can buy some paint for what I want to do in my house.

I've got to say, that was one of the most innovative treasure hunts I've been on. I liked the e-twist.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Belated New Year's Resolutions

1. Paint and redecorate at least the bedroom and office. In the office I want to paint grass-panel walls, and in the bedroom probably a light yellow, and add lots of light blue/green/silver accents.
2. I would say lose 5-10 lbs, but what I really want to lose is just a tiny bit of pudge, and if I gain a few lbs of muscle in the process I don't really know what the lb-age would turn out to be.
3. Wear skirts/dresses more often. Perhaps that is too vague. Maybe I should say, at least once or twice a week? I have plenty I just don't wear them enough.
4. Make more YouTube videos of me singing.
5. Read/Finish 12 books, 1 each month. Probably the following 12 (though, of course, I reserve the right to modify, add or delete from this list):

January: The Road to Serfdom by F. A. Hayek
    I joined an email mailing list for the Ludwig von Mises institute, and one mailing was a list of top 10 Libertarian/Austrian Economics books. I decided to go for this one, and got it on CD from the library. I am currently listening to it.
February: The Overcoat by Nikolai Gogol
    I saw a movie on Netflix “The Namesake,” which made me curious about this book. I think it may just be a short story, and shouldn't take long. I have it on hold at the library.
March: The Mosquito Coast by Paul Theroux
    Back when I had a huge crush on Harrison Ford (as Han Solo), I used to read anything about him that I could get access to. After seeing “What Lies Beneath,” I’ll never like him quite the way I used to, but I still think he’s a fascinating person. Shy in high school, liked biographies, his favorite historical character was Lincoln. In college he double-majored in Philosophy and English, but made low grades and dropped out. He learned carpentry from library books, and got his first carpentry job building a million-dollar studio in Brazil (if I remember correctly). It was while installing cabinetry on the set during tryouts that he was asked to stand in and read the part of Han Solo (or so the rumours go), and the rest is history. At some point he got a pilot’s license and now sometimes pilots his own helicopter in search and rescue missions. Anyway, in one interview he said that The Mosquito Coast was his favorite movie to play in, so I had to see it. It was not quite what I expected, but I just loved the idea of this genius taking his family off into the jungle to live independently of modern society. The fact that he goes crazy in the end just makes it that much more interesting. I know that the way Christians/Christianity is portrayed in that movie offends some people, but I still think Allie Fox is a fascinating character and just wanted to read about him in more detail. I started reading this last year, it is the book that I keep in my gym bag/purse for moments when I’m stuck waiting.
April: 20 Questions: An Introduction to Philosophy G. Lee Bowie et al.
    I decided I needed to know something about philosophy, and went on the Internet in search of a suitable textbook. I loved the format and title of this book, and it wasn’t too expensive (older used textbooks almost never are - which should tell you something about the racket which is our textbook industry). It is a great survey of many thinkers, a good way to get one’s feet wet, so to speak. I do feel that they try a bit too hard to be politically correct. Every chapter has something about feminism, and most have something about racism, plus these topics each get a chapter of their own. Furthermore, two of the great questions are considered to be Creationism vs. Evolution, and abortion. Don’t get me wrong, I think those are very important questions, but in a philosophy book I expected questions with a little more history to them. I am wondering if the focus on contemporary relevancy has super-ceded the focus on philosophy? Anyway, there are still many interesting selections in this book - but I must confess that usually this is the book that I read to put me to sleep.
May: How to Program in C# 2010 by Harvey Deitel
    I enrolled in a programming class for this spring, and this is the textbook for the class. So, I guess another New Year’s resolution is to learn programming and hopefully find a job with it. First day of classes is January 25th.
Summer: The Castle, The Trial, and Amerika by Franz Kafka
    I first found out about Kafka when reading something about Kurt Gödel, where his work was described as “Kafakaesque,” and so I just HAD to get a better appreciation of what that word meant, so I read the Metamorphosis. I still feel that I need to get a better feeling for what “Kafkaesque” means.
September: Faust part II by Goethe
    I read the first part online, and now I need to read the second. 
October: Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller
    Rachel suggested this book to me. I’ve heard of it before, and keep meaning to read it.
November: The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
    I’ve hear alot about this book. I think it is fairly short and shouldn’t take too long. I really am somewhat of a slow reader - which is funny because as a child I always thought I was a fast reader. I think I was faster then, mainly because I had more time, secondarily because I generally chose easy fiction, and tertiarily because I never used to stop and think/write about what I was reading. Anyway, I want to make reachable resolutions, otherwise what’s the point?
December: The Complete Lincoln-Douglas Debates
    This is a fairly small pamphlet, and shouldn’t take long to read, so I won’t feel overwhelmed when I get to the end of this list.

And for extra-credit, I will hopefully finish a 13th book: a whopper of a history textbook which I started two years ago online: Tragedy & Hope: A History of the World in Our Time by Carroll Quigley

Books that didn't quite make it on the list this year (which I may still attempt if I get ahead of schedule, or bored with my other selections): Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass, The Island of the Day Before, A Picture of Dorian Grey, Tale of Two Cities, Ethics, A Critique of Pure Reason, The Rise and Fall of the Roman Empire, Democracy in America, The Evolution of Civilizations, Thinking in Java 3rd ed. by Bruce Eckel and Elementary Number Theory by David Burton.

Oh, and Goodreads has linked up with facebook, so I've been updating my reading list over there.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Ode to Marvin

Nobody gets mad at robots; or if they do, the robot doesn't mind.
Robots always do what they are told, and never make mistakes;
     or if they do, the programmer shouldn't blame the robot.
But if he does, the robot doesn't mind.
Robots never need to sleep or eat.
They never get bored or lonely.
They never have whimsical desires.
They never feel anything negative;
     or positive, but they don't regret this loss.
I wish I was a robot - but a robot doesn't make wishes.
Unless he is programmed to.
Maybe I am a robot afterall? A wishing robot.


PS - I wish I was a different kind of robot.